Need, by Dionisio D. Martinez
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The things you need to live, the people
you love to death--what would you call them tonight
if your life depended on the truth? Let’s say a man
breaks into your house, holds
a knife to your throat and makes you call
your wife by her proper name. Suppose you call out
another woman’s name. By now all the names
have become one: hers. But you don’t know
if you’d be this confident with a knife so close
that the light bouncing off the blade
makes you squint. The Eskimo who shields
his eyes from the sun rising on his white-
on-white world has no all-encompassing word
for snow; instead, he names
each kind of snow as if it bore no relation
to all the other kinds. My father never called
my mother by her name. He even avoided
terms of endearment, fearing they would gradually
take the place of that name. Calling her his love
would have torn all those ambiguous bonds that make
love remotely possible. My father would start to talk,
assuming that my mother knew she was being addressed.
From “Bad Achemy” (Norton: $17.95; 109 pp.) 1994 Reprinted by permission.